There are roads left in both of our shoes

So I had a thought.

I don't know if it's stupid, I just thought of it earlier today. It may well be. It may be just as stupid to take the time to tell y'all about it.

It may be even stupider to use the word "Y'all".

...

But I digress.

I am always confused by the fact that I show an interest in so very many different areas. Music, Film, Drawing, Photography, Special Effects, Graphic Design, 3D Art, Video Games, Writing, etc.

I've realized that this extends into smaller subsections of each of my hobbies as well. Generally speaking in 3D, people focus on one aspect, whether it be modeling, texturing, animating, rigging, rendering. I've never been able to focus on just one aspect. In music I focus primarily on guitar and vocals, but I've always dabbled in percussion, piano, bass, and more. To an even finer degree, just in guitar, I've never been able to settle on one style. I was primarily acoustic from the start, migrating more to lead guitar in the manner of Joe Satriani after a few years, then more towards the chunky rhythm sounds of punk rock, before shifting now to a much more acoustic/folksy style.

So I can't pick one thing to work on, to do, to enjoy. This makes it hard to decide a lot of things, not the least of which being my career. I enjoy a lot of things, and I think part of the reason for that is because I have trouble sticking with any one thing for too long. I get bored easily and I have to find something else to occupy my time. Another side effect of this mindset is that I don't really excel at anything I try. I never put enough effort and time into something to get really good, so basically I'm mediocre at a lot of stuff.

I'm not complaining, and I know I've said most of this before. I also know that the only thing keeping me this way is myself, and if I really wanna stop then I need to narrow down my fields of interest and be more committed and not so lazy. Oh, another reason I don't put too much effort into things is because the early stages of most things I try come really easy, so I can get to an acceptable level of competence with little or no work on my part. When things get hard, I find it very difficult to care enough to keep trying.

Anywho, the point of this blog is that I've decided on a course of action to hopefully resolve this issue. I'm going to start pursuing my hobbies more actively on a daily basis, and as a result I hope I'll see which ones I truly enjoy and which I just feel like I should try, or use as filler when the others bore me. So, I've kind of already got the writing thing covered with how often I blog, but I'm going to make a more focused effort to write at least one article or story every week. I'm also going to make a point of setting aside at least one chunk of one day per week to go out and shoot pictures. I work in 3D, so all I have to do to make sure I put more effort into that is be a better worker. Two birds with one stone, yay. I'm also going to try to spend two nights a week working diligently on music. Writing, not covers. Let's see...what else...well, I've pretty much given up on drawing/painting, but maybe I'll see about setting aside a sketching day too.

As for the secondary aspects of each hobby, I think I'm gonna try and narrow them down to the areas I've spent the most time on up to this point, so I'm dropping piano and drums for guitar and vocals, and I'm focusing on the singer/songwriter aspect of music more than any other.

Well, I'm really hoping that I can follow through on this, another personality trait I find myself lacking is ambition, which makes it difficult to stick with shtuff, y'knowz?

But hopefully not only will this help me narrow down my areas of interest and help me learn a little about myself and what I want to do with my life....but also forcing myself to be more dedicated in my pursuit of these hobbies should help me improve in those areas right? And if I succeed it'll mean I've learned how to apply myself more, which is important!

Huzzah.

Anyway, not that you're at all interested in my plans and aspirations, but I thought I'd share that with everyone. Maybe you can even help me stick to it or something, like an accountabilibuddy!

K, thanks for reading, talk later :)

loren

P.S. In the interest of overall general improvements to myself as a person, I resolve to sing at the next karaoke I attend, sober or otherwise, and I resolve to dance like no one's watching at the soonest possible opportunity, but I'll need to get good and wasted first :)